Heartbreak Diary Part 1

I turned around and look at the time. 11:00 AM. I still don't want to wake up. I wish I could just sleep all day. Or I wish everything's just a dream, nothing is real. It's funny how with just one status of a person can break someone else's heart. But I need to get up. My world does not revolve around one person. I got up from my bed, and saw a sign on the wall:

"When I come to the end of my rope, God is there to take over."

I paused and reflect. I chose to go on and live not knowing what will happen next, than to be trapped in this hallow emptyness. If I'm going to end my life knowing the worst, I will not see the best that is waiting for me if I just chose to let God take over. Today, it's like getting to the end of my rope. But it's not really the end.. God is always there to give us a new start. Sometimes when things don't go our way, it's just a means of God saving us from being destroyed. I know God loves me. And I know I cannot survive the pain, but I can let it GO.. to God's Hands.

"Lord, let me renew my faith and devotion to You. I'm so sorry if I tried to go my own way, and ended up being a loser again. From now on, I will give my all to You. There's no turning back now..I cannot test You. You see evrything and even the unseen. You know me so much I cannot fool You. I know blessings awaits those who sincerely surrender all his/her life to You. I'm doing that now. I entrust to You my All. I love You so much, my Real Lover."