Heartbreak Diary Part 4

12:52PM. He just left. Leaving me like this before. Empty. I super hate this feeling. I want to promise myself I will not let him make me feel this way again. He's not worth it. I can't believe I'd let it happen again. I haven't learned! And now, I can't even encourage myself to go to church today. I'm so guilty. I'm so ashamed of myself, I have no face to show in God's Holy court. I was like stunned by a snake..paralyzed..I cant move. I thought I already won last fri when I had an excuse not to see him, but I didnt expect he'll come over yesterday..and my resistance was down when he's near. I didnt want to do the things I just did. I know he's just using me.. I can't feel he loves me, and when he left it's like nothing had happened. What a wretched girl I am! :'(